Life (overall) is pretty easy and fantastic compared to most people in the world. I get that, but I am really ready to have normal back. I am ready to have my routine back. The one where I work 2 days in the office, three at home. For the last several weeks life has been too unpredictable. I haven't known what was going to happen in a given week and I am realizing my personality doesn't like that long term. First with the sudden labor of my dear friend and watching their kids, then a trip to see my parents, then the loss of my grandma and the loss of my roommate/best friend's grandma, then jury duty and now sickness and jury duty.
I am not complaining or trying not to at least. I like that I have a life that can be flexible, that can be of help to people. Half of the things mentioned above I was happy to do or be a part of but quite honestly, I need a normal week or two where I know what's going to happen. One where I can make plans or not make plans. One where I can go into the office and see my staff and not feel rushed or out of sorts. One where I can make plans for my shop, my blog and yes even writing.
What I am trying to do, in my human effort, is get a grasp as to why 1) its getting to me 2) why some things happen all at once 3) what and where does God want me?
I am in a place where I am blind to what He is doing. Mostly because I have let myself get there but I also think he has me in a place of purpose, I am just not sure what that purpose is and how I can make it known.
I am not complaining or trying not to at least. I like that I have a life that can be flexible, that can be of help to people. Half of the things mentioned above I was happy to do or be a part of but quite honestly, I need a normal week or two where I know what's going to happen. One where I can make plans or not make plans. One where I can go into the office and see my staff and not feel rushed or out of sorts. One where I can make plans for my shop, my blog and yes even writing.
What I am trying to do, in my human effort, is get a grasp as to why 1) its getting to me 2) why some things happen all at once 3) what and where does God want me?
I am in a place where I am blind to what He is doing. Mostly because I have let myself get there but I also think he has me in a place of purpose, I am just not sure what that purpose is and how I can make it known.


